You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
But when I look for you
I only see the clouds
Weeping with rain
You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
Why do you leave me
Drenched with disappointment
With every complaint
You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
I look for you in skies above
As I wait here
Overcome with pain
My life has been an empty hole
That I have tried in vain to fill
With masks and tears
Wilted flowers and broken feelings
I tried to fill the empty hole with you
But you knew you could escape
You just turned around and walked away
Leaving me empty once again
This is it -
Your life is now
The movement, the mercies
The tears on your cheek
You need to begin
Before you can end
You will succeed
You will succeed in killing me
Doctors, specialists
Telling me I am beyond help
Too much weight gain
From the pills that stop me
From going insane
That help to block
The pain of you
A heart attack?
Breath stopping in the night?
So many choices and
They have given up on me
You will succeed
You will succeed in killing me
Little Rose, why do you cry?
Falling petals at the end of the season
Dream of living forevermore
In a heart, in a hand
Something warm
Instead of the cold
Dying in the cold
Little Rose, stop your tears
You had your moment in the sun
Before your petals disappeared
Before you meant nothing to no one
I found myself missing you today
But I do not miss the games you play
Making me feel I am not enough
Meanwhile I try to act so tough
Inside myself my heart is crying
A part of me is slowly dying
I found myself missing you today
Then I turned and walked away
You don't know me
All you know is what you've heard
You can't see me
I am far away somewhere better
And you can't show me
Why letting you in closer
Would ever be a good idea
The skies open up
God is crying
He saw another little sparrow fall
I dust off my wings
I can't keep myself from sighing
The broken sparrow, I stand tall
Fallen angel cries
As he falls toward the earth
The darkness of his eyes
Barely cover tears
Not knowing what they're worth
Fallen angel sighs
As he brushes off his wings
Covered with the dirt
Of masses crying in vain
For peace and harmony
Reaching out to him
It's too late
Can't they see?
I forgive you for everything, he'd say
And I would look in the mirror
At my tear-stained cheeks
The circles under my eyes
Eyes red from crying
And I wondered
How could I ever forgive myself?
Poetry. Every. Day.
But what if the words are shattered
Fragmented and scattered
In a broken and sad mind
Teardrops fall on the ground
Splattered
The rhymes inside me confined
The stale smell of cigarettes surrounds me
A haunted house of my own making
Trick or treat?
Too late for me to choose
Wanting to fast forward time
To see if I win or lose
Entombed in a husk
Locked in my own emotions
A prison of my own making
I trade sadness for hope
But it's not that easy
I miss the simplicity of those moments
Thinking some magic
Would work for me
I am like the moon
Waxing and waning
Depending on how you wish to see me
Shining through the darkness
Guided by your interest
In a celestial body
That never fades away
My mind is a dark and winding road
I've gone too far
Can't find my way back
I'll just continue down the winding road
Until everything fades to black
This isn't a ball
No masquerade at all
It's just you and me at a standoff
When I come to call
After all we've been through
Can't you show me the real you?
The parts you keep hidden
I haven't got a clue
Show me your soul
Show me you as a whole
Then maybe I'll show you mine
Keep playing this little role
Snow falls over the grass,
And from where I stand
Observing the wondrousness
I am taken aback
By the blessings it unfolds
I have no words
No words to explain
This constant refrain
In a mind that sanity
Left behind
How can this life
Be so unkind?
I am there when you're lonely
I am there when you have time
But when your friends come calling
I take it as a sign
I am still there when you're lonely
Listening to you when you have time
But when your friends stop calling
Don't expect me to be standing by
I said I own this life
You tried to tell me no
I run away with my fingers swimming in air
Not knowing where I might go
One - two - three - four -
The car door slams
Five - six - seven - eight -
The garage door slams
Nine - ten - eleven - twelve -
The front door slams
I am an inchworm
Counting the seconds to my end
The flowers you gave me
Like our love, have all died
Your smile fades from my memories
No reason to smile anymore
I still reach for you in the night
Yet your pillow is cold
Like the room
Where we once danced
Where I was ever so bold
We met upon the stairs
I was too scared to even speak
I had been watching you
From a distance
And now I was no longer meek
"I don't think this could ever work
The silence of our love
I want a love that dances
Beneath the moon
Without having to give you a shove"
Wind and rain tear open
The windows I just closed
And in my mind
I remember both of us
Pulling at the windows
Closing curtains like parchment
Then holding each other
Through the howling night
I climb under the covers
And wish for your warmth
And care
Today you promised me the sunshine
I had to take cover from the rain
If you think I am that same sad girl
You better take a look again
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