This isn't a ball
No masquerade at all
It's just you and me at a standoff
When I come to call
After all we've been through
Can't you show me the real you?
The parts you keep hidden
I haven't got a clue
Show me your soul
Show me you as a whole
Then maybe I'll show you mine
Keep playing this little role
Snow falls over the grass,
And from where I stand
Observing the wondrousness
I am taken aback
By the blessings it unfolds
I have no words
No words to explain
This constant refrain
In a mind that sanity
Left behind
How can this life
Be so unkind?
I am there when you're lonely
I am there when you have time
But when your friends come calling
I take it as a sign
I am still there when you're lonely
Listening to you when you have time
But when your friends stop calling
Don't expect me to be standing by
I said I own this life
You tried to tell me no
I run away with my fingers swimming in air
Not knowing where I might go
One - two - three - four -
The car door slams
Five - six - seven - eight -
The garage door slams
Nine - ten - eleven - twelve -
The front door slams
I am an inchworm
Counting the seconds to my end
The flowers you gave me
Like our love, have all died
Your smile fades from my memories
No reason to smile anymore
I still reach for you in the night
Yet your pillow is cold
Like the room
Where we once danced
Where I was ever so bold
We met upon the stairs
I was too scared to even speak
I had been watching you
From a distance
And now I was no longer meek
"I don't think this could ever work
The silence of our love
I want a love that dances
Beneath the moon
Without having to give you a shove"
Wind and rain tear open
The windows I just closed
And in my mind
I remember both of us
Pulling at the windows
Closing curtains like parchment
Then holding each other
Through the howling night
I climb under the covers
And wish for your warmth
And care
Today you promised me the sunshine
I had to take cover from the rain
If you think I am that same sad girl
You better take a look again
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