I forgive you for everything, he'd say
And I would look in the mirror
At my tear-stained cheeks
The circles under my eyes
Eyes red from crying
And I wondered
How could I ever forgive myself?
Tanya Mills is a 50-year-old author from Ontario, Canada. Although she has been writing her whole life, her first poetry book, Unbroken, was not published until she was 45 years old. Her second book, Worthless: Poems Of Sadness and Reflection, is available at Amazon. She has also written Carter Marches In The Pride Parade and the haunting Family Scrapbook: One Family's Journey Through Time.
I forgive you for everything, he'd say
And I would look in the mirror
At my tear-stained cheeks
The circles under my eyes
Eyes red from crying
And I wondered
How could I ever forgive myself?
Poetry. Every. Day.
But what if the words are shattered
Fragmented and scattered
In a broken and sad mind
Teardrops fall on the ground
Splattered
The rhymes inside me confined
The stale smell of cigarettes surrounds me
A haunted house of my own making
Trick or treat?
Too late for me to choose
Wanting to fast forward time
To see if I win or lose
Entombed in a husk
Locked in my own emotions
A prison of my own making
I trade sadness for hope
But it's not that easy
I miss the simplicity of those moments
Thinking some magic
Would work for me
I am like the moon
Waxing and waning
Depending on how you wish to see me
Shining through the darkness
Guided by your interest
In a celestial body
That never fades away
My mind is a dark and winding road
I've gone too far
Can't find my way back
I'll just continue down the winding road
Until everything fades to black
Don't look at me Don't break me This ghost of a person You will grow to hate me Disappear from my life Stab me with your knife And...